I want to wake up where you are.

me.

Thu, 23 May 2013 00:24:51 -0400

me.

I don’t want to feel so horendously anymore. I want to feel ok. I hate having an eating disorder...

Wed, 22 May 2013 23:43:21 -0400

I don’t want to feel so horendously anymore. I want to feel ok. I hate having an eating disorder that I don’t know how to deal with. It’s not getting any easier. I feel trapt and alone stuck in here with my thoughts.

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invisibleryot: I never wanted to have this kind of disorder, I would like to eat and be able to...

Wed, 22 May 2013 01:17:26 -0400

invisibleryot:

I never wanted to have this kind of disorder,

I would like to eat and be able to keep it down

I would love it if my mind wasn’t affected by all the hate

For now, I’ll keep fighting this battle

And I know I’ll win

Someday

When I’m strong enough to control my thoughts,

I’ll think of nothing but positive things.

And force my mind to love my body,

And force my mind to stop hurting my body

I am absolutely so confused. I can’t figure out what I want to do. being home is kind of...

Wed, 22 May 2013 00:58:00 -0400

I am absolutely so confused. I can’t figure out what I want to do. being home is kind of killing me. it puts me back into the mindset I had as a teenager in high school… which includes getting nothing done, and many self harm issues. just because I am back in this environment does not mean I have to be the way I was back then. and I am in control of that. I have the control to fix these issues and not let them come back and take over my life. but honestly right now it’s really hard to try. sometimes I feel like it’s easier to just let it happen even though I know it’s not what’s best for me.

I hate having to chose to be good to myself every day. I wish it came naturally to me. it sounds like something that should come naturally. but instead what comes naturally to me is being lazy, hating myself, binge eating, and lots of puke. like seriously what the fuck. why is that even a thing?

I just wish I could find some motivation. but everything I was doing okay with before is going down the drain. I don’t even try at the things I’m good at anymore. and I usually like doing those things.

this sucks.

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"You have one life – this one right now – you must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other..."

Tue, 21 May 2013 21:12:32 -0400

“You have one life – this one right now – you must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other people’s opinions distract you from your path.”

- World Observer (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

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"When the heart is at ease, the body is healthy."

Tue, 21 May 2013 15:36:22 -0400

“When the heart is at ease, the body is healthy.”

- Chinese Proverb (via healthconsciousness)